The Newborn Insomniac

I like Mondays, it makes me feel like there is a need to kick start the week with something positive, to push myself to create or change something. Suddenly I am beginning to realise how fragile or vulnerable we are when it comes to handling emotions, especially when it gets to peaceful and quiet, at night especially, no matter how loud you blast the stereo, the mind seems to set you into a mode of isolation.

Nevertheless, I need to find a better way to cope with this naturally self-imposed 'alienation', thing can get even worst when you are tired, you know that you have to sleep but the mind just keep on wandering around in space.

And you start to walk in circles or even squares, you pick up the guitar thinking that you have found a great tune to a new song, but no, you start to light a ciggarette and move around again. Then you wash the dishes in the sink, after that you play with the cats...then force yourself to fall asleep again by watching a stupid film hoping that the sound could drone you to sleep.

Then suddenly you realised its almost dawn...a few hours later you are up again, but its better because there are always things to do during the day...the things you do to make you feel more alive than ever.